bit by the love bug!

Have you ever been bit by the love bug? It feels like nothing in your little world could go wrong... and everyone is drawn to you! I've been bit a few memorable times, including recently. I know this time is utterly different than anytime before. Because this love bug has come out of a greater, living reality of what it means to depend on God. I'm gradually realizing my purpose is to be loved and to love. And apart from the grace of God I can produce no good thing! Being dependent on God means to not worry, "be anxious for nothing" as scripture declares. If I'm being obedient and walking the path God has laid out for me, then what do I have to worry about?

I used to say, "It's not God that I don't trust, it's my ability to hear Him that I don't trust." Yet, even in that statement it proves my distrust in God. By me not trusting that He knows me well enough to properly guide me. This segues into another interrealted topic: how much does God really love me? Not only have I been learning His love, but I've been experiencing His pleasure in me. I've become more comfortable with my skin, realizing God created it and said it was good. How do I articulate God's delight? hmmm... For instance, the other morning I was driving into work, looking into the brillant sunrise displaying a vast spectrum of colors, and started conversing with the Lord. "Father," I exclaimed, "are You delighted in me?" Emotions were evoked instantaneously at this request with tears filling my ducts! I felt Him whisper, "Oh Jessie, I am SO delighted in you!" And He went on to tell me how proud He was of me, exclaiming that He knew about the tough choices I have had to make on my own, and I have chosen rightly. And He told me His faithfulness was like that brillant sunrise and I could count on His mercy being new every morning! I continued to linger on the thought of there not being one day that the sun has ceased to rise in my life.  How faithful my God is to me!

Yes, so God's love has been invading every fiber of my being... and this is where I left off to finish later... and lo I have forgotten my thought... sigh.. maybe it will come back.  In the meantime, watch out for that Love Bug;0)